Things to do before I leave on the 4th:

- Go get a beaver tail (preferably on the canal)

- Go tobogganing on Green's Creek.

- Go tanning

- Finish reading The White Oleander

- Make more money

- Spend more time with friends & family

I work in 45 minutes and I haven't even started getting ready. Oooops.

Love.

I'm blue da bah dee da bah dye.

Second year, second semester. (Oh, and Merry Christmas!)

I am extremely stoked for next semester! I just read into all of my course outlines and all of my classes look AMAZING (if I get the prof that I so badly want and need.. haha kidding).

Anyways, I'm taking:

- Subcultures and the Media (Don Moore vs. Tanner Mirrlees ♥)

-Digital Design (a class about powerpoint, illustrator, photoshop, etc.)

-Radio Broadcasting (Amazing, even though I don't have Mike)

-Presentations and Persuasion (no exams/essays, but rather giving different kinds of speeches.. with Greg Kelley. Hello awesome!)

-and my elective, Desire & Discontent (it's about different human emotions)

I can't waiiiiit! I'm gonna be a huge nerd when I go back to school 5 days before any of my roommates get home and I'm gonna read a shit load of books about journalism & shit that interests me. And, my marks are up from first semester and my endless amount of homework/studying has paid off :) I'm pretty happy. Except that Noble obviously didn't submit her marks on time, go figure. So I can only assume that my average will get even better when she submits my mark! Woo!

Oh and by the way, I do realize that it's Christmas Day and I'm writing a post about next semester, but this just put me in an amazing mood.

Also, I got some sweet stuff for Christmas! Thanks Mom & Matt :)

Merry Christmas everyone! Hope your day has been going as well as mine so far!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I bought a box of peanut butter ritz bits sandwiches and they are so good!

I forgot how delicious these things are ♥

I am so happy!

I've been playing Wii Fit for an hour every day for the past four days. I honestly didn't think that it would do anything for me, but it already has! I woke up this morning in pain, because I haven't been stretching. So naturally, I decided to stretch for 30 minutes, then hop back on the balance board. Apparently, my BMI has already dropped by a few points, so I came back up to check my weight, and I've lost two pounds :) haha, doesn't seem like much, I know, but I feel like I'm already starting to look more toned around my stomach. Woooo! That's my joyful ramble about wii fit.

Anyways, I am now going to wrap some presents!

Love.

Gleeeee!

I started watching Glee last night, and it was AMAZING.

Anna & I got to episode 3, and we will be watching more tonight. I'm pretty stoked.

Since I've been home..

I've been sleeping in and playing wii fitness. That is all.

I'm waiting for my boss to call me so that I have something to do during the day when Anna's at work because nobody else is home yet. Well, Pat was. But he's gone now. Okay coooooool.

Oh, and I miss Matt.

Hi!

I like tea :)

... And having nothing to do but waiting for my friends to get here.

I. AM. DONE. ALL. OF. MY. EXAMS.

YEAHHHH! Christmas Break, let's doooo thissss! :)

Sippin' on some tea and praying that my sore throat will go away.

It's one day before my Christmas break.. pleaseeeeee leave me alone!

Ramble.

Helloooooo fellow bloggers,

Here's my life update:

For the past couple of days, I haven't been able to sleep properly. Either I go to bed early (11ish) and wake up from 1-4ish, or I lay down and can't fall asleep for like 2 hours. I have an exam tomorrow morning at 8am. I have to get up at around 6:45am.. I'm scared. And to top that all off, I woke up with a sore throat and a stuffy nose this morning. Amazing. haha.

Anyways, I'm super excited to see my friends tomorrow, then to head home on Sunday. :)!

In case you were wondering, I have to go to school today to drop off 4 assignments, then come back and study. I have the place to myself today which means no distractions. Even though it's never my roommates who distract me (other than Katie of course :P), but it's usually me who goes upstairs to procrastinate. Then I'll be going back to Value today because the sweater I bought yesterday is made of wool and is so itchy. I don't think I'll be able to make it through the night with it on.

Also, a band from Ottawa named Benefit of a Doubt (who is amazing, by the way) are getting their music video aired on Much Music! HOLLA! Most of them graduated from my school, and they've been working super hard at this since I was in grade 10 or 11. So they definitely deserve everything they've gotten out of their hard work :) Congrats boys! Check them out! www.myspace.com/benefitofadoubtrock

Break countdown...

Two days until Christmas break!!

I'm so excited. My friends Anna & Adam are coming up on Saturday morning, then we're going downtown to do some shopping (I still haven't started Christmas shopping.. ooooops), then we're going to an ugly Christmas sweater party and heading back to Ottawa on Sunday morning!

I'm currently writing my contemporary narrative take home (almost done), then I'm going to VV with Kristina to hunt down an ugly xmas sweater, then back to studying for Canadian Issues.

No homework for a month? Effing riiiight! :)

Love.

The Blind Side

Last night, Matt & I went to go see "The Blind Side" and it was so good. I had tears in my eyes / was crying the entire time. Ah! Michael (the main character) is just, so cute. Every time he looked sad I would cry. Haha, but yeah, it was an amazing movie! It really gets you thinking too. It shows two extremes (wealth vs. poverty) and how differently they not only act, but think. But yeah, I recommend you go see it!

Anyways, we got back and ordered pizza cause we were hungry then did some homework and read a really good magazine together. It was a good night :)

I've waited all my life to cross this line, to the only thing that's true.
So I will not hide, it's time to try, anything to be with you.
All my life I've waited, this is true.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

Well, not reeeeally.
BUT - It's snowing in Toronto!!! And I'm not talking about a few snow flakes here and there. Oh no, it was like, a legit snowfall. Though I don't really like snow, it was nice to walk home in. It was pretty and made it feel like it was actually winter, and not spring.

Also, Matt & I went to Vaughan Mills this weekend and they were playing Christmas music and it was pretty sweet. That mall is ridiculous though. My space bubble was definitely invaded by like 300 people who were walking way too close to me.

Either way though, Christmas is quickly approaching, and though it didn't seem like it before, it most definitely does now.
I should probably get started on my Christmas shopping... Yikes.


Love.

"Be the change you wish to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi

I've been looking at inspirational quote posters for the past hour, and I want them all. Especially the Gandhi one that's in this title. I love it.

I'm so strange.

I just wrote a whole post about how I've come to realize that everybody that I know and love is going to eventually die. It's something that I didn't want to realize, and now that I have, I'm pretty bummed. And that's why I decided not to post it.

On a completely different note, I've been sitting on my bed, mentally preparing myself to do homework since 7:30pm. It is not 10:48pm and I have barely done anything. Go me.

Oh Ashlee, you're sadly a great procrastinator.
[yes, I did just refer to myself in third person]

Love.

Nanook of the whaaaa?!

Mr. John Grierson, I am pleased to have gotten to know you, but uh... GET THE HELL OUTTA MY HEAD!

I'm done two classes!

Nine more days until I'm done them all :) Yessss!

And with a smile on my face, I'm ready to go!

Holla at being in a good mood!

It's gorgeous in Toronto today (though I haven't been outside), which means...STUDY FOR DOC. FILM! ha.

Let's get'r done!

After several weeks of being at a high, my low has finally hit.

Ever feel like you're not good enough?

That would be me tonight.

Sigh.

I love walking by myself at night with nothing but my ipod. It's so relaxing and really gets me thinking. It's like my own "me" time where I can reflect on lyrics and relationships that I have with people, and well, everything really. Music is amazing.

Zzz

I'm slowly starting a new sleeping schedule so that I don't fail my 8am exam in two weeks [I usually don't wake up until noon.. or later.]

I woke up at 9:45 this morning. I'm amazed with myself.

YUSSS!

Love.

I like the way you're everything I've ever wanted. ♥

Think about it..

Why?

And no, this one cannot be answered with 'why not.'

Honestly, life is so confusing. I have so many question, but I don't think that anybody will ever be able to answer them for me.

Why am I sitting here, in my room full of clothing, using my macbook and listening to my iPod, where I have a cell phone, access to the Internet, to food, to warmth... essentially to everything that somebody in a third world country does not. Why am I here, studying at a University and spending thousands of dollars, when there are so many people who can't even afford to eat a meal per day. They live in houses made of mud, of straw, and here I am complaining that my room is too small, or too ugly. How fucking selfish of me. Of so many of us, actually!

What makes me so privileged to be here while several people are dying in third world countries because they don't have access to things that they NEED for survival; not want, but need. Water, food, shelter, clothing, medicine. Things that I take for granted every single day. I'll complain that I don't have enough clothes when I can go six weeks without doing laundry, or that the fridge is empty when in reality, it's full.

I want to figure out why I'm here, and not over there. I want to know why I got so lucky. Am I here for a reason? To help those who are less fortunate than I? I have no idea.

But I want to do something about it. I want to build schools, homes, wells, churches. I want to help.

It's not fair that I have water, food, heating, electricity, and so many things that I don't NEED, but WANT. I am loved by my family, my friends, my boyfriend. Could you imagine seeing somebody you love pass away because they are malnourished? Probably not, because we're living in Toronto, in Ottawa, not Africa, not India.

I want to make a difference. I don't want to take anything for granted anymore, I no longer want to be selfish or greedy..

I think I've found my new life goal.

Fucking eh!

Oh man.. check out what I just remembered..

The boys are back in town.

Well, I'm not a boy, but Matt is! And we're back in Ottawa for the weekend :)

Though I'm gonna be studying pretty much all weekend, it's nice to clear my lungs of all the smog in Toronto and get away for a couple days.

I surprised my mom by calling her at like 11:30pm telling her my brother was outside the house and didn't have his key or something along those lines. She was so thrown off when she saw me, aha. Nothing like a random trip 5 hours away from school. I should have told her I got expelled or something.

Okay I'm rambling.. and I neeeeeeeed to study.

Love.

:)

How cute are these?!

(Minus his hands & feet look NARST.)

Love.

Heya!

Just thought I should let you know that I feel good!

I'm representing Relay for Life while doing some homework and laundry. Individual assignments are done, and group projects are almost done. Sweet? I think so!

I went out for dinner with my boy and my friends for mine & Kacy's birthday and what I had was so good. Mmm. Love not having to make dinner!

Anyways, I should do some work now.. Not like I haven't done enough this month or anything.

Okay. Homework. Peace.

Love.

I'M LEEEEEEEEEEEGALLLLLLLLL!

IT'S MY NINETEENTH BIRTHDAY [fiiiiiiiinally!]

I'm stoked :)

Dinner & dranking & spending time with Matthew tonight, cannot wait.

Yayyyyy!!

Love.

TWLOHA Day <3

Ps. I don't know why I look so mad?

TWLOHA

Tomorrow, November 13, is To Write Love On Her Arms day.

To Write Love On Her Arms is a non-profit organization that is dedicated to helping people suffering from depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide find hope.

Writing "love" on your arm or arms tomorrow will help many several people who are currently undergoing hard times feel supported. It will let them know that they are not alone, though it usually seems that way. This day exists in hope that people suffering from depression will be inspired to invest in treatment and recovery.

So tomorrow, November 13, write love on your arms and support the millions of people who are suffering from depression.

Learn more here:

http://www.twloha.com/index.php

Finito!

Stoked on being done my doc. film and tv essay!

Now onto my media structure & policy essay.

Then, doc film group presentation.

Once that's done, media structure & policy group assignment.

After that, study for my second contemporary narrative midterm.

Somewhere in there, Kim Noble will assign a due date for our long feature.. At least I think she will?

Once all of that is done, I get to study for exams.

Christmas break, please come asap. Thanks :)

Love.

Mr. Johnson.

I was browsing through my music library this afternoon when I came across Jack Johnson. I forgot how calming & amazing his music is. I thought it would be helpful while writing my essay, but I was wrongly mistaken. I've been signing along with him for about half an hour now.

I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together.

Oh, and I haven't finished my film essay yet. What a surprise!

Love.

Doc Film, you kill me.

It is officially time to power through my film essay. I plan on finishing it before I go to sleep.

Wish me luck!

Love.

Don't ask.

Random thoughts:

I want some sweet black and white pictures to put on my wall.

Cold cut combo at Subway is NOT good, and will make you feel like shit.

I need some fancier clothes.

I also need more band tees.

I cannot wait until Christmas break.

I'm breaking out hardcore, and I don't know why.

I want to go to a movie soon. It's been way too long.

My boyfriend is awesome.

I'm craving fettuccine alfredo.

My birthday is in six days.

I need to go shower.. so I'm gonna go do that.

Good night!

Love.

Noooooovember.

This month is going to be absolutely nuts.

As much homework as I have to do though, I'm keeping my cool about it all because I know that I'll be able to get through it, pass all of my exams, and then enjoy a month off school hanging out with my besties from back home and potentially make some cash.

It's a great feeling to just relax about everything instead of stressing, and telling yourself "you can do it!" Lame, I know, but seriously, try it. Just don't give up and try your best, because really, that's all you can do.

Oh yeah, my all-time favourite prof, Mike Karapita, is teaching radio broadcasting next semester. I am BEYOND stoked!

Anyways, that's my little rant on school & positivity.

Oh, and I've come to realize that Movember won't be that bad. Sure, my boyfriend will look like a goof, but because it's for a good cause and he hopefully will be collecting donations for it, it's totally worth it. It better be a sweet 'stache babe ;)

Last thing, my 19th birthday is in 11 days, and I have absolutely no intentions of getting drunk. It feels good to say that :)

Okay I'm done!

Love.

October 31

HALLOWEEN IS HERE!

All day, I've been listening to halloween music and watching some pretty sweet videos and contemplating drinking.. haha. I can't wait to get dressed up and stuff :)

We've gotta start doing Kristina's hair in an hour and a half, so I've gotta get myself ready pretty soon.

I hope the party will be sweet, cause that's pretty much all that's going on as of now. It'll be my first drink in seven weeks. I am beyond excited.

Love.

GUESS WHAT?!

I have the world's best boyfriend.

Like, actually.

Matthew Larry Waghorn, you are honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Who decided that clowns were "fun" or "cute"?

Seriously! I don't understand how children can laugh and be amused at the sight of a clown. They are absolutely terrifying! I get so scared that I just want to puke every time I see one, lol. Especially "zombie clowns", aka clowns that are a bloody mess, which make them even scarier! I'd appreciate if they just no longer existed, and made my life/Halloween a lot easier for me :)

Love.

Dallas Green, you are absolutely brilliant.

Dallas Green (my all-time favourite artist) won an award at the 2009 Casby Awards! "Sleeping Sickness," off of City & Colour's Bring Me Your Love, won Favourite New Single. BOO YEAH! I hope he's playing in either Toronto or Ottawa sometime soon. I miss him. haha. That being said, Alexisonfire is playing at the ACC on March 28th, with Against Me, and I will most definitely be there.

I just thought of the perfect birthday present.. Get Dallas to come to my house, and sing to me for the rest of my life. (Of course I'll allow him to go on tour and whatnot, but I need to be backstage when this happens.) Perfect, thanks :)

Love.

Halloweeeeeen

Today is Saturday October 24th.

Halloween is exactly one week from today, and I'm freaking out because I don't have a costume yet. A big part of that reason is because they're so damn expensive! Honestly, since when did the average price of a costume become over $80? So ridiculous.

I was thinking of being a paper bag princess, but that means a) difficulty peeing and b) no chance of ever sitting. The second idea that came to mind was a devil. It's kinda cute, it's cheap, but it's so unoriginal. Oh well. People will have to deal with my lack of creativity.

Anyways, I miss residence. I absolutely loved the fact that there would always be somebody who was awake, no matter what time it was. I miss my tiny little room and the people on my floor, and having a residence card that felt like you would never be spending a dime. I miss flushing the toilet, using the water, or having a shower while somebody else is showering. I miss not having to cook, do dishes, or do chores. I miss floor meetings and announcing them with Jer. I miss hall parties and real parties. I miss that all I needed to do was go down the hall to ask someone a question about an assignment. I miss never having to be home alone. I miss S5.

Love.

Some people..

Some people in this world are so screwed up..

I was watching CP-24 yesterday morning, and saw that a group of young men had beaten up and run over another male, Christopher Skinner, who was 27. Skinner was walking home from celebrating his sister's birthday, and was said to not be the type to start a fight. Friends said they think this happened because he is gay...

Honestly, what does it matter to you whether somebody is straight, gay or bisexual? I don't care if you think homosexuality is "disgusting" or "unnatural," mind you own business. Nobody is forcing you to partake in anything you don't want to do, so stay out of it. Another thing I hate about "homophobia," especially in males, is they think that because somebody is gay, he automatically has a crush on you and wants to do you. Do you, as a straight being, want to do every girl you see? I doubt it. So get over yourself, cause gay guys have good taste.

Back to the story though, no matter if it was over him being gay or not, how on earth do you bring yourself to run over and kill a living person?

Oh, planet Earth. You've got some messed up people living on you.

School!

In case you were wondering, school is going very well for me right now.

I'm getting caught up on everything (including my very boring Doc Film readings). Group projects are coming together, midterms are pretty much over, life is good.

Oh, and I am soooo excited for next semester, as one of my classes is radio broadcasting.

Rad, I know. :)

Love.

Be warned, I am furious.

I apologize in advance for my anger and unprofessionalism.

Believe it or not, this is a minivan.

Guess what happened to this minivan?

It was in an accident. An accident that took three lives. An accident that could have been totally avoided had somebody been intelligent enough to know that DRINKING AND DRIVING IS FUCKING RETARDED!

Mind you, he was going 200km/h down a 60 zone. A fucking 60 zone!

You irresponsible, moronic.. I almost don't want to say this, but you're a waste of a life.

Drinking and driving is my "pet peeve" if you will.

Nothing in this world bothers me more.

What the fuck goes through your head when you tell yourself that you're okay to drive? Going 140km over the speed limit. Rhetorical question, but are you dumb?

Now what.. You've taken three lives. THREE lives. Three friggin INNOCENT lives.

One of them was actually a cancer survivor. Yep. She was battling her bone marrow cancer for two years, and was making enormous progress. Another, her daughter, had just graduated from medical school. The last was their family friend, who was "ejected" from the minivan, and died at the scene.

To make it worse, the accused, Roman Luskin, got out of it with a bandaged hand and some blood marks on his head.

I hope you feel like absolute shit for the rest of your life you stupid stupid stupid prick.

http://www.thestar.com/news/gta/article/712412--accused-in-200-km-h-crash-seeks-translator

Rest in Peace Hon To, Christine Taing and friend. <3

Love.love.love.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn in just to love and be loved in return." - Moulin Rouge

God I love that quote.

Love is simply astonishing... Nothing can beat looking into someone's eyes and feeling like everything in the world is just perfect. Having that one person who knows you inside and out, your good and bad side, and still thinks that you're amazing. Getting butterflies and not being in control of the huge smile that takes up your entire face when you see them. Being comfortable enough to tell them all of your secrets, and to call them at 3am when you can't sleep. Receiving the best hugs and kisses, and wanting nothing more than to spend forever in their arms. Oh love, you are simply beautiful.

Love.

Helloooo blogspot!

Today is an absolutely gorgeous Sunday in Toronto. The sun is shining, the sky is very blue, the grass is green, and it's a whole whooping 7 degrees. Unfortunately for me, I'm stuck inside studying for the midterm that I have tomorrow. That made me realize something though.. I need to pick up an outdoor hobby. Even if I wasn't stuck inside, what would I do? Walk out my front door, go for a little walk only to start feeling creepy as I walk past other people's houses, then come back home. I wish I was into like, photography or roller blading. Ha. Roller blading.. The one time I ever tried to do that was like 3 years ago, and it was raining (Bad call). I went down a fairly steep hill, only to get to the bottom and land on my ass, in a huge puddle. Good times.

On another note, I am in a fantastic mood, and I don't know why, but I really like it :) Being joyful is just an amazing feeling. It puts everyone else in a good mood too! Tip of the day: Next time you feel down or stressed out, take a minute to think about all of the things that make you happy. Then smile, and stay positive. I feel like Dr. Phil, but it's true! You'll feel a heck of a lot better, and so will everyone around you! Woo! :)

Love.