Sunday, May 30, 2010

Just a vacancy.

I wish I wasn't jealous.
It drives me crazy when I feel a slight hint of jealousy because it makes me feel insecure and like I don't trust you.
But I'm not insecure, and I do trust you.

I don't even know if it's jealousy, or if I just don't like her (which I don't).


Anyways, I'm reading a book called "Love the one you're with" (thanks for the recommendation, Lev!) and I really like it so far.
I went out for breakfast this morning with someone I used to work with. It was nice to catch up.
I work at 4, and really don't want to go.
I'm tired and want to spend the whole day in bed.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Absolutely disgusting.

There's a toddler in Indonesia who smokes cigarettes. He's two years old and smokes two packs per day. When he doesn't get his smokes, he throws temper tantrums and hits his head on things. His father gave him his first cigarette when he was 18 months old.


I'm aware that their culture is much different than ours, but common! Two years old?! So disturbing.
PLUS, he weighs 55 lbs and is obviously overweight and unhealthy. He rides on some toy car because he can't walk or run like other kids.

I legitimately feel bad for this child. Hopefully Children's Aid takes him away from the family.

Btw, whoever named this video has issues.. "funny?"
I personally don't think so..

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

I want breakfast so bad..

But it's 1230am.. Approximately 10 hours before I plan on waking up.
I can't wait.

I think I'm gonna go to sleep now so that it comes faster.
Hahaha, I have no life.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I'm a dollar short.

I'm so relaxed right now. It feels amazing.

Last night, a group of my friends went to our friend Adam's place to hang out. It was nice to see everyone! We listened to music, drank, and talked about the world (literally, we spoke about what's going on in the news. it was amazing. i love having serious conversations like that with my friends.) Anyways, afterwards, a few of us went to Phil's house and we watched the A Day to Remember tour video. It was funny.

I worked from 4-9, and have been chilling in my bed ever since. I'm in a really good mood and am enjoying being by myself. I might try to write some music, and if that doesn't work, there's an article that I've been wanting to write since the beginning of second year. Maybe I'll start gathering ideas for that.

Anyways, that's been my long weekend.
Hope yours is going well! :)


Thursday, May 20, 2010

What the f***...

Here's an article about a gay couple in Malawi that are being imprisoned for up to fourteen years..

Seriously, I'd love to march my white ass over there, and scream at them to grow up & mind their own business.

A fourteen year sentence, really? That's only ten years less than a life sentence.. A LIFE SENTENCE FOR HAVING KILLED SOMEBODY! BRUTAL MURDER. DISMEMBERMENT. RAPE.

Now I'm not a judge, but uh... being in love with somebody of the same sex does not, at all, WHATSOEVER, compare to having raped or murdered another individual.

Who the hell decided that love could be sinful?

Fuck! What's the hell is wrong with the world?

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

A word of advice from Dallas

When all your friends have come and gone
And the sun no longer shines
And the happiness for which you long is washed away like an ocean's tide
When all the hard times outweigh the good
And all your words are misunderstood
When the day seems lost from the start
You must follow your heart.

Monday, May 17, 2010


(You have to click on it to read the whole thing.. My page is too narrow. My B.)

Today's horoscope.

"You might find yourself doing a bit of thinking about some of the deeper aspects of life today. And you may encounter other people who help to change some of your current views. You ought to be expressing yourself rather easily at the moment, and you should be able to get to the bottom of many different things right now."

So weird.
Leviana, thanks for being that person. :) LOVE YOU girly!

I'm in over my head.

Good day!

My apologies again for my confusing ramble last night.

The whole thing started with me thinking about my grandfather. My dad's dad is an outgoing, positive, funny man. He cracks jokes all the time, is full of energy, and has the cutest old man laugh. A few years ago, they found cancer in his lung. Because of that, they had to cut off half of one of his lungs.. Everything seemed to be going well, until (I believe) around the end of 2009. They found more cancer spots in his lungs. About a month ago, my dad called me with the news that the cancer had spread to his spinal cord. For those of you who don't know much about cancer, once it gets into the bone, it can lead straight to the brain. I saw my grandpa this past weekend, and he wasn't the same man. He's in constant pain, he can't do much, his memory is going, he barely laughed, and he couldn't stay awake for much longer than an hour. It's really hard to see somebody that you love go through all of this.. Before we left, my grandma, aunt and dad talked about funeral arrangements. That was really tough. My grandparents live alone in a cottage somewhere in the country. Although they have friends in their little neighbourhood, I don't see my grandmother having much strength once he's gone. Unlike many people I know, I luckily still have all of my grandparents. I don't want to see any of them go..

Anyways, not only has that been going through my mind since I've left on Saturday afternoon, but a lot of things have changed since I've been home for the summer.

Then, was my future. Last night, I realized that I have no experience in my field. Thankfully, I have my internship in my fourth year that will be very helpful, but I'm not the only university student who's currently studying journalism, and there definitely is not a job for each and every one of us once we graduate. I need to start focusing on getting my foot in the door, and determining exactly what it is I want to do, because I definitely don't want to waste my internship opportunity with something that I completely despise.

I guess these are some of the things that can explain last night's post. I'm feeling a lot better about everything, and am trying to keep my head up.

Smiles are much prettier than frowns :)


Sunday, May 16, 2010

I could really use a wish right now.

So much has been running through my head lately.
They're not even complete thoughts, just fragments of them.
They're not necessarily negative or depressing, but they're not optimistic or enjoyable either.
I want to sit here and write for hours, but I don't know where to start.
My mind is a mess.
I wish I knew how to clear it.
I want to go for a run, but it's 11pm and I'm not really into rape or mugging..
I want, and need to get away. By myself. For two days.
Sitting in the sun, watching the waves hit my feet.
Thinking about everything, but at the same time, thinking about nothing.
I want to be lifeless, just for a little while. Feel nothing. Think nothing. Do nothing.
Not having to worry about what day or time it is, what people think of me, what my purpose in life is. No thoughts. Just me.

I feel like I'm on drugs, though I wouldn't know what that feels like..
I don't know what I feel.

I'm sorry that this post makes absolutely no sense, whatsoever.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Days off work are the best.

This summer, my two days off seem to be Wednesday and Thursday. Random, I know.
These past two days have been really good though!

Yesterday, I went to the movies and saw Date Night (not as good as I expected it to be, by the way), went biking with Anna, watched the second period of the game at Lizz's, biked back to Anna's during intermission and watched the rest of the game there. Montreal played amazingly and beat Pittsburgh 5-2. HECK YES. On the news this morning, they were saying that even though the cops were ready, and the main "club" street was closed, Montreal still went wild. Last year, they flipped cars, broke store windows, were beating each other up.. Literally a riot. Last night, it was still a little hectic. Store windows were broken, beer bottles were thrown at cops, and all of that good stuff. 28 (at least I'm pretty sure that's the number) people were arrested. I wanted to be there so bad, haha. Anyways, though they didn't win the Cup YET, I'm sure they'll defeat the Bruins tomorrow night. After the game, I came home, did my little work out, then went to sleep.

Today, all I've done so far is tan. I went outside at around noon [ohhh my god. a scary bug just started flying around my room.. no idea where he came from, or where he is now. I'm scared.] Okay, anyways, I went out at around noon and stayed out there for a good hour. When I got back in though, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw that the front of my body was MUCH darker than the back.. Awesome. Because I don't want to look like an idiot, I decided I should go back out and lay on my stomach for twenty minutes. Of course five minutes into my second tanning session, the clouds started rolling in, and didn't go away. So I came back in, took a shower, made some eggs, and started my laundry.

Now I'm here, and am going to try to figure out which elective I want to take next semester..


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

New things!


So since I've been home, I've been spending the money that I don't have on clothing.. Luckily though, everything (except for the first tank top) has been on sale! Since that's pretty much all I've been doing so far this summer, I figured I would post pictures of my new purchases :)


WARNING! Ashlee's body may or may not be exposed in the next photo. Don't scroll down if you puke at the sight of flab! hahaha.

(By the way, can you tell how awkward I felt taking this picture by my pose? haha)

And it's reversible! :)
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This is my tired face. I'm doing my crunches then going to bed.
Goodnight! ♥

Monday, May 10, 2010

So sad..

The OSPCA shelter in Newmarket is putting all of their animals down because of a ringworm outbreak.. They have over 350 animals.


If you feel like reading about it:
Today has been a shitty day.

My friend cut my hair - I now look like a boy and lack any type of self-confidence.
I look like I gained ten pounds - see ya again, self-confidence.
Work was long, boring and lonely. When my shift was supposed to be over, my boss decided it was time for him to go to Costco.. I was the only person there, so obviously, I had to stay.. for an extra three hours.
I sat in my room with my door locked, and did nothing all night.
Waited for someone to come hang out with me for a bit, hoping they'd cheer me up, and they forgot to show up.

I know, it obviously could have been a lot worse, but I just wanted to rant before I go to sleep.


Friday, May 7, 2010

I need you here with me. ♥

Do you remember when days were like that?

Helloooo. Sorry for the lack of posts, Katie. (haha).

I've been really busy with work, working out, and seeing friends.
Today, I worked from 10am-8pm, came home, went for a run, showered, then cleaned a large portion of my house. I am exhausted.

I don't really have any life updates or anything. Well, none that I really want to share online for everyone to read.

I'm starting to learn piano. It's not as difficult as I thought it would be.

I went shopping and bought a fake leather jacket, a tank top, a tube top and a yellow polka dot bikini.
I love all of them :)

That's literally all that I've got.. I'm so tired that I can't even think. Blah.

Goodnight blog world.
Hopefully something exciting will occur so that I can post more.

Kay bye!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Marks are up!

And I'm so happy! :) Here they are:

78 in Desire and Discontent (and I'm almost positive I failed the final..)

86 in Presentation and Persuasion

87 in Subcultures in the Mainstream Media

88 in Digital Design (which is actually, according to my course website supposed to be an 89)

91 in Radio Broadcasting.

86% average this semester!
85% average second year!

(Lev, I totally stole your post idea, haha. Sorry, love you!)

Anyways, I'm going out now :)

LOVE! (Capitals because I'm in a good mooooood!)

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever."
- Winnie the Pooh.

Monday, May 3, 2010

I've gotta catch my breath.